I don’t know if this is a good thing or bad thing, but it helps to be constantly reminded that I am on a mission.
I turned my bedroom into a multipurpose room. I have a section for our bed and then we have the exercising and sitting area.
I have l learned that I have an unhealthy relationship with food. So far, I have altered the times that I eat. I have also started watching the calories of my favorite foods. I think I am eating around 2000 calories or less.
Each day I have managed to increase my time on the treadmill. I started out with an effort score of 50 and now I am over 125. It isn’t where I need to be, but each day is an improvement.
On a sidenote, today my husband is cooking my favorite meal and I can’t eat it. Smelling the onions and seeing the beef makes me super uneasy. I have never feared food, but I am dreading the completion of dinner.
A lot of people are up in arms about Dave Chappelle’s Sticks and Stones Special on Netflix. He has a little bit of everything going on, but above all he has freedom of speech. In many ways people are proving him right in regards to how we deal with hot topics in America. We are a country that prides ourselves for freedom of expression in everyway, but it is only certain ideas that we want to give acceptance to.
I am not a lover of comedy, but I watched his special. I found some parts to be funny at times, but I also found some of the jokes to be a little too much. I respect his right to tell his jokes without backlash due to nature of his profession. Comedians or jesters have been known to provoke feelings since the beginning of comedy. In the old days they would make fun of royalty by talking about state issues that many would be too afraid to bring up. To some degree that is what Dave Chappelle accomplished with his special.
Some of the hot topics he talked about needed to be addressed. I mean take the LGBTQ topic and really think about it. I find it a little confusing and movement like today. I didn’t see it that way years ago, but after seeing the different branches that have come from the base, it now looks like a movement. It keeps evolving every couple of years. You now have pansexual, skoliosexual, bisexual, homosexual, lesbian, gay, transsexual and queer. I mean what’s next? I do not understand why we have to have so many different names for people liking people. It isn’t that complex, you like who you like.
I think the really interesting part about this current transformation is that people are easily moved to agree with anything. I am kind of scared of what comes next to be honest. Every two years or so we see a new sexuality being added and I think that is dangerous. Today we might not see anything that can harm anyone, but that isn’t to say that things will not change in a few years. It is just very confusing because people championed for rights to be one thing, but then crossed over into something else.
If you champion for rights to be gay, then you move back to being straight or move to be both, then how important were those rights in the first place? It just looks like a movement dipped in confusion. Take that and the ability for people belonging in the group to suppress others and their opinions and it makes things even more confusing. On one hand people want to fight for the freedom to practice their rights to love whomever they want to love, but on the other hand the same people would oppress others to have a difference in opinion.
Yet, at the end of the day, it all comes back to people being able to pick whom they once were. After so many laws were passed to protect the lifestyle, it seems like there is a change once again. I can’t think of any targeted group within history that has given up their rights to be who they are, only to make new terms which bring them back to the person they were prior to the new laws. I think pansexual is a path to walking back to being straight. Which is why I told my daughter to hold off on labels and just take it day by day. If we stop labeling each other and just live, we wouldn’t have to keep trying to justify our choices, we could just simply be.
Just to be clear, I am not questioning anyone’s right to change, but if people end up changing back to their first sexuality, what does it mean for the laws that were put in place? Was it just simply a lifestyle change?
Tonight, my daughter got yet another wayward reply from a guy she met at a game. She is having issues when it comes to finding a person who likes her for who she is and not what she looks like. She walked in with tears in her eyes and read the text questioning her virginity by the unknown guy. Then she said she was never going to find her good guy and she would forever be single. Now, on any other day, I would be happy to hear, the always be single words come out of her mouth. Yet, the admission of those words seemed to bring up something deeper in her. I saw her sadness and reassured her that her Mr. Right was waiting for her. I reminded her that keeping to her standards and living her life with meaning was more important than any potential boyfriend. In truth, she is too special, too kind, too awesomely crafted, too smart, and too rare to lower herself for a run-a-way guy. So, if your daughters or sons are having the same issue tonight, let them know the same. They are here because they are special, they are here because their lives have meaning, and that will never change.